Saturday, October 31, 2009
Yesterday was supposed to be a nice day, a nice ending to the school year of 2009.
At least, I thought it was supposed to be. Turns out otherwise.
The result I saw in the report book was a big, shock.
35th in class among 38, level position 243th, among 333 people.
"Failure is not an option." -One of my earlier posts.
Turns out I still have to take it.
How hopeless I feel.
I set my target at top 10 early this year.
Now I get bottom 10. Again.
I tried so hard to get into triple science.
Now if I don't appeal, I'm accepting combined science, thrown straight in my face.
Whatever I threw in all my effort for, the opposite came true.
I don't know what to do next.
Every moment seems to get more and more painful.
Nothing seems to be nice for me.
I've had enough.
I'm tired.
I'm stuck.
I'm finished.
For good.
What's YOUR definition of FEAR? -3:46 AM
