Gone.
Finished.
Doomed.
Somehow the words above seems very familiar.
Almost integrated into me and my life.
With every moment I feel more and more hopeless.
The path ahead seems dark and lonely. Maybe even painful.
This week has been a very harsh lesson on how far hard work and ambition takes a person.
In my case, nowhere.
I can only hope that I can still get an A1 for my Geography paper. [At least 45/60]
Not likely though.
My results have been relatively bad. Especially Science.
I studied so damn bloody hard for SA2, and this is all I get?!
I failed the Science paper for a start. Last in class in fact. History repeats itself, by the way.
Then Chinese...I passed, but still not satisfied. C5...still more than half the class beat me...
Maths...f*** I just couldn't get and A1!! 2 marks more only!!
English...still quite low, despite a B4.
F*** I think I'm finished.
Combined Science for sure next year.
All hopes of even trying to get into RJC 2 years later are gone. F***ing GONE!!
I'm finished!
I have really met a dead end, along with a "No U-turn" sign.
I feel hopeless. Utter failure.
And its not just my studies I feel f***ed up.
I've been going on a soccer/basketball frenzy to take away the pain and fear within. I even find myself turning to food and drinks to make myself more comfortable.
Soon I'm going to need beer. Maybe even whiskey.
My world is crashing right in front of me, and I can do nothing to save it.
Such is the shattered dreams of an ambitious man.
What should I do next?
How is my future going to be?
Someone answer me.
